My Current State of Mental Health (continued)...
I’m not allowed to share the thoughts on my mind, because they’re violent ones.
I’m not allowed to talk about suicide because apparently that is “attention seeking”.
I’m not allowed to harm myself, because apparently that is, also, “attention seeking”.
People try to use the fact that a peado groomed me, used me and pimped me out, against me. I’m supposed to feel disgusted about that, apparently. Whilst the man himself is regarded as some sort of “hero” around Croydon. Never hear a bad word against him. Seriously?? He rapes children. But apparently I’m the disgusting one, whom should be ashamed of herself.
Got to love the Rape Culture.
NOTE: Heavy use of sarcasm.
People are disgusting. And they all seem to think suicide is easy. LMFAO. I wish!!
Ah; but of course I am nothing but an attention seeking whore. Why the hell should anyone listen to me? Since when did I decide to get above my station? I should know my place, right?
This is a personal post from Facebook:
I have been ostracised from my entire family. Cut off from every single member (including my brother). My cousins have come to a point where they have turned on me, and I feel as if I am being bullied by them. My parents have a restraining order against me.
In short: I feel as if I do not know these people, at all.
I do, however, have an amazing and supportive small group of close friends (some who've been there for over 15 years).
They say you can't choose your family. But I have chosen my family; they're just not biologically related to me.
It's going to be hard -- but I need to forget about those people who produced me, used me and abused me.
My friends are all that I will ever need.
Above: Originally posted to Facebook, 21st Novermber 2012.